Thoughts on Scattered Thoughts

Why is still a good question.
Why X, Why Z, Why me or her,
Because conception is a complex story
lived and told by the storyteller...


The auditory and visual centers of the mind are soft, mucous covered hunks of flesh. As far as the identification of objects, the process of storing and retrieving memory, and the sensations of sound and light are concerned, every experience is cradled in these centers. The way something looks and sounds, as contrasted to what something means, or means to say, is a function of these centers.


The language centers
of the mind
are also soft,
mucous covered
hunks of flesh.
Words, sentence structures,
meaning and the like
are conjured there.
Every thought is
X reaction, and each
Emotion too is
X reaction. There is
no difference. This is where
the story begins.



These two centers ha
ve a converging point.

And where they con
verge is a place per-

haps scientists
are calling the

story
of the


self.


If I told you I was once a man
who'd never killed another man,
who'd never pounded with my
fists against a wall made of bricks
to break through and cinch his throat
in two, would you believe me?
You must.
I am the storyteller.


But during my story I cannot hear you,
and so I have no way to listen.
But if I could, Oh! if I could,
Every word would glisten.
Each a drop of gelid rain,
stuck against a blade.
An orb of crispy liquid --
slippery, yes, but fast against the grade.
Advice, perhaps, to take
would be contained in every drop.
Something which to keep me sane,
ingredients to make a friend pop
right from thin air.



A dream, a fantasy it is to hear you while I live and tell my story. The truth is I would enjoy your feedback. You could tell me when to stop. When enough is enough so I wouldn't trail off forever. And if I did, I'd probably end up somewhere I didn't intend. Somewhere deep in that mucous covered sac. A place to which only accidents can lead the way. Maybe I'd end up telling you a secret? Nothing too personal; I won't lose all sense of censorship. What I'd do is tell you how mysterious you are to me. How I have made something for you, and how it is not a gift. How it is not a gift, but how I still want you to have it. How it is for you and me both really. How the chances are so low that I'll ever know how you feel about it, either because we'll never meet, or because you'll never read my story.
If you think it's sad, it isn't.


I am not lying, I am not lying.
I'm telling you the truth,
or at least so hard I'm trying
despite the shortness of my tooth!